Wednesday, August 29
Maybe we're BOTH repressed.
posted by jon
This is funny...for once i feel you completely. Emotions are a great and powerful thing but human nature evolved an intelligence to deal with the lesser baser aspects of self. Opening yourself up to dangle in the emotional winds of whimsy is just asking for a world of hurt. How much better to employ your superior intelligence and control what you can. However, there's a very thin line between control and repression so be careful not to go too far overboard.
posted by Tin
See, i think the the mind is a powerful thing. Not that emotions aren't important but they are less predictable and make less sense. If i'm sad for some stupid reason and i know it's stupid, shouldn't i do everything in my power to prevent that kind of thinking and sadness again? That way, things that irrationally bug me and make me unhappy....won't.
posted by jon
I don't really think the two are related. Happiness and sadness are opposites but i don't think you need to necessarily experience one of know the other. People who envision happiness and sadness as opposite ends of a scale are not thinking correctly. One does not need to sink to incredible depths to experience pure joy and elation.
posted by Tin
The current leading theory is that because i remain detached and rational all the time i allow myself to only feel a certain amount of sadness, and thus i am only a certain corresponding percentage happy. I get asked that alot too..."So are you ever really really happy? How can you be if you aren't ever really really sad?"
posted by jon
Wait wait...why is that being repressed? Don't most people rationalize away their sadness? Telling themselves to "look at the bigger picture" and convince themselves that "life isn't really that bad." How are your rationalizations symptoms of repression?
posted by Tin
I've been asked many a time if i'm ever unhappy or sad. To answer that, i always say..."Of course i get sad and unhappy." But, i think that only lasts for a very quick moment because i think about what is making me sad and then i try to rationalize it away. I've been told that it's pretty unhealthy and potentially i'm just repressing things.
posted by jon
Sunday, August 19
Oh i don't know. I don't think i could ever impose on "Your Master" for any more favors...he's already done so much to lead me toward the light...
posted by jon
Maybe with a little counseling from your new found friend you can slowly climb out from the depths of humanity to which you've apparently sunk.
posted by Tin
I was just starting to lose my faith in the inherent evilness of man when suddenly i'm brought back to Earth with this unique yet compelling message. I suddenly feel like my strength is sapping away from my small manhood and my will to live has diminished. All i can think about is driving in a little Japanese compact car and reciting the Pythagorean Theorem...is that wrong?
posted by jon
I bet it really opened your slanty little eyes to see the big picture didn't it?
posted by Tin
Yes...it stunned me to hear "Chinky, Gook, Small, Genitalia and Math" all in the same sentence. And somehow "Poodles" even made it into the picture.
posted by jon
Wow...that's so deep and profound. Not to mention incredibly original...I like how he cryptically signed it "Your Master." It adds a nice ethereal touch to the message don't you think?
posted by Tin
On Thursday 8/16/2001 at 9:54:22pm...THIS was left on my guestbook:
SHUT UP YOU CHINKY GOOK...GO LEARN TO DRIVE AND SUFFER WITH YOUR SMALL GENITALIA WHILE EATING YOUR POODLES DOING SOME MATH
-YOUR MASTER-
posted by jon
Saturday, August 11
Dream on boyo. Your subconscious puke means nothing....
posted by Tin
Well, it would be nice to believe that my subconscious is telling me something important and relevant.
posted by jon
Obviously there's some deep hidden meaning here that will reveal all your insecurities inherent in your lifestyle. For the record however, i hate it when people talk about dreams because really, how can anyone make sense of anything in a dream? It's just you're subconscious splurging, it probably doesn't mean anything.
posted by Tin
That's the thing. I have no idea. First off, it's weird because it was Babbs leading me into the room and he isn't really supposed to be there because all the other people are the people i went to Northwestern MAASU with freshman year. I've been trying really hard to thing of what the snakes and the 2D fish and the fear relate to but for the life of me i cannot. And all i remember is waking up thinking about how they moved the tank into the room because the tank was so huge...like a Sea World Shamu tank.
posted by jon
What does it all mean oh analytical one?
posted by Tin
I had this trippy dream the other nite. I don't normally dream so for me to actually wake up and remember one is pretty rare. There was this party going on...more like a backyard party and i feel like it was for a graduation of some sort. Everyone was having a good time when Brian Babb suddenly told me to come with him and we went to this room where Katy, Steve Tan, Shirley, Carol and Louis were at. Inside, we were giving each other graduation gifts and they decided to get me this giant fish tank. Inside it were a few really beautiful clown fish and various other cool fish. But, there were two water snakes inside and this weird giant fish that looked like a Super Mario Brothers flying fish. All i could think of was how i was going to move the fish tank with me when i left. But the freakiest thing was that i kept thinking the snakes would jump out of the tank and go crazy and attack everyone so i was afraid of lifting open the lid. The stupid Super Mario Brothers fish just kept on staring at me with its unblinking 2D eyes the whole time.
posted by jon
Wednesday, August 8
You better start conducting some field research on what that feeling is like because you may not be "the best" anything for quite some time. "Best Slacker" doesn't really hold up under scutiny so you better keep looking.
posted by Tin
I feel like i'm always average to above average but never really excellent at anything. It must be an amazing karmic cycle to feel like you are the best and to keep pushing to maintain that status. I've never had to do that because i've always been quite content being "decent." If i lose at basketball or do poorly in school, it's like, "oh well, i can live with it." In a way it's definitely a good thing because i'm sure my head would get pretty big at times but i think it would be nice to be "the best" at something. If only for a quick second. Doesn't everyone feel that way? Isn't everyone secretly or not so secretly hoping to establish themselves as "the best?"
posted by jon
Oh ok, so you're not talking about the best in the world, like Michael Jordan, just the best at a specific moment in time.
posted by Tin
See, i feel like most people have been "the best" at something in their lives. No matter how fleeting the moment or how significant the act. Whether it be winning piano competitions, or being the star basketball player, or being picked to be the one lone recipient of a scholarship...how does that feel? I mean, not that it really matters because inevitably someone is always better than you but within your own personal sphere...being the best means something.
posted by jon
Oh how proud your parents must of been...tied for best in the limbo contest...their little jonny...
posted by Tin
Actually, it's not well known but i think i won our class spelling bee in the third grade. And i was tied for first place in the limbo contest in fifth grade. So there.
posted by jon
You obviously have no idea. Now were the question, "What does it feel like to be the tenth best...you would have ALL the answers."
posted by Tin
What does it feel like to be the best? I just watched "Searching for Bobby Fischer" and it got me thinking about what it means to be the best at something.
posted by jon
Friday, August 3
Interesting isn't exactly the word i would choose to use here. And what the heck does this mean?
"He makes nations great, and destroys them; he enlarges nations, and disperses them. He deprives the leaders of the earth of their reason." -Job 12:23-
posted by Tin
It's kind of interesting though.
posted by jon
AmericanDestiny.com. If this does not scare you...nothing will. What is this whole site about? God as the reason for America's dominance? Christianity as the savior of a nation? I'm still not sure. This is the kind of thinking that totally scares me about religion and specifically Christianity.
posted by Tin
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the
wizard
our naive
protagonist. think harry potter. but older. and not as cool. the wizard
has feelings and emotions and all of that human bs. the wizard is lost,
lonely, and curious. aren't you?
tin
man
the batman
to the wizard's robin, the jordan to wiz's pippen, the britney to the
wizard's justin, the skipper to the wizard's gilligan, the jon to the
george...yeah, you get it. the tin man is stronger, faster, and more powerful
than any locomotive. but he's not real. just a heartless, soulless, practical
machine. who happens to talk.